1980 School Magazine

TO THOSE WHO WANT TO UNDERSTAND, BUT NEVER CAN

Tears, silently falling, but hot, hurtful

I make no sound; I do not want to wake you.

lcry,

why do I cry? I cry because I must leave,

because I love you and want to stay with you

forever, but cannot.

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You wake, and come over to me, You hold me close, and question me. But there is no answer, only pain You rise and get me a Kleenex. Silently I thank you. You hold me tight, and the tighter the hold, the more I want to cry. I want to tell you about the way I feel, but there are no words. So I say I am crying because it is a form of release; and I am. But it is more, much more, and if you knew, you would not approve. I cry because of the times we laughed, because of your patient tolerance at my f irst attempts of washing your hair, it annoyed you that you were unable to do it yourself. lcry because of the times I sat with you, bored, but not really knowing what else to do; where to go, f rig htened. And lcry because you would not say "l love you", and you noticed how long my nose was. You disapprove because I am showing a "weakness", common to all women, when you thought I was something more than "just" a woman. You, who are conditioned not to worry over such "trrvial" matters, seem to care not; But my tears I can not halt. You comfort me, and I stop my crying, externally. but you do not know, and you could never understand, why I cry. That is is as much for you, as for me, that I weep.

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